Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Hello out there.......

Sorry I've been MIA.....again. 

All you faithful bloggers seriously impress me.  I mean, how do you do it?  I can hardly write my own posts each week, much less keep up with all of you!

But I want to!  I love you!  I miss you!  Bear with me while I catch up on my blog reading.

And forgive me in advance when I slip up again.  And I will.  But I'm not doing it on purpose!

Okay, with that said.  Life is totally CrAzY here. Can you say "High BG?"

During Spring Break, Matthew's started having lots of highs.  That trend has seriously continued.  (Day before yesterday, he spent ALL MORNING hovering around 350.  Yesterday, 250.  Sigh.) 

I keep upping the basal. It works for a bit, then I need to up it again. 

At first I thought it was another growth spurt---and it may be---but I think he's working out of honeymoon. (It's been just over a year since diagnosis.) 

But people, the honeymoon ending is NO honeymoon.  Yikes!  I'll be so glad to get him settled soon.

In the meantime, I'm just really trying to stay on top of it.  As soon as I see a pattern, I increase the insulin and try to slay that dragon! 

But I'm not much of a warrior.  Sigh......

Hugs and kisses to all!  : )

Monday, March 7, 2011

Great Wolf Lodge Surprise

Here's a 60 second look at how it all started. 

Matthew is the excited one and the other kiddo is Matthew's best friend, Garrett.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Dear Matthew

One year ago today, you were diagnosed with diabetes. It’s been a hard year. Full of lancets, blood, sugar checks, shots, ketones, carb counting, pod changes, highs and those lows that you hate so much. The list goes on and on.

But despite the challenges that this year has brought, your dad and I are choosing to CELEBRATE this day! Not only because you are alive and healthy, but because this past year you have grown in ways we never could have dreamed of. YOU turned this into a year of bravery, courage, and fearlessness.

God is teaching you to be BRAVE. I first noticed it at History Night last spring. Mrs. MacKenzie asked for a volunteer who wanted to go up to the microphone and invite parents to her classroom after the program. Your dad and I were shocked to discover that you volunteered. The boy I knew wouldn't have considered it. But you gathered up your courage, marched right up and spoke in front of about 200 strangers! My heart burst with pride as I watched you put your nervousness aside and take a risk. Wow!

God is teaching you to be COURAGEOUS.  Remember diabetes camp? I know it was scary at first. Other than Tanner, you didn’t know a single person. And you were so new to diabetes. But did that stop you? No way! You chose to be courageous and go for it! Not only did you have fun, you also walked away with the Most Responsible Award. Now you want to be a Counselor-In-Training one day….just like Derek. With your smile, sense of humor, and outgoing spirit, I know you will be a blessing and encouragement to all the kids.

God is teaching you to be FEARLESS.  Remember when you decided to give yourself that first shot? Something you continued to do every day for months. You are becoming a boy willing to do whatever it takes to take care of himself. I AM SO PROUD OF THIS CHOICE!! Your dad and I love that we can trust you to do what we ask. It takes a lot of courage to do the right thing.

God is turning you into a BRAVE young man. There was a time when you were a very picky eater!  But you’ve been trying new foods. Everything from brown rice and carrots….to lima beans and your new favorite: hamburgers! You’re trying lots of new things and enjoying most of them.

What is bringing about this transformation in you? Is part of it being a child with diabetes? Every day you face challenges I will never understand because I can only watch from the sidelines. But I love that you are choosing to meet the battle head-on every single day. 

Yes, you have shown a tremendous amount of courage this past year, but do you know what amazes me the most?  Through all the difficult days, you have never lost, what your dad and I like to call, "the spirit of Matthew." You always have a smile on your face. You're always quick to make someone laugh. You are always up for an adventure! Roadtrip! You don't let diabetes slow you down one bit. I admire you for that.

Matthew, GOD LOVES YOU so much. I believe He is making you STRONG for a reason. He has big plans for you!  Exciting plans that are going to knock your socks off!  “And we know that in ALL THINGS God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28.

I am so thankful that God chose me to be your mom.

I love you,

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

We're Still Here....

Sorry I haven't been to blogland in a while.  I haven't written a post and I haven't been reading everyone else's either.  I need to get my rear-in-gear!  Life has been busy.  Good busy.....

Except for all the lows Matthew has been having.  It's been nuts!  Today was the first time he hasn't been low at lunch in a week!  Instead, a beautiful 102 greeted us on the PDM.  Much better than all the 40s and 50s he's had recently.

The "surprise" is coming up.  Yay!  We've managed to keep it a secret. I can't wait to surprise him!!  I'll post pictures when we get back.

Matthew's d-day anniversay is Saturday.  I'm getting a little emotional about it as it gets closer.....I didn't think that would happen.

I think our life has just changed so much in the past year....but God is good.  He's carried us through.

In our bible study this year, we're studying Isaiah.  One particular verse popped out at me this week.  I think it's perfect since God has carried us through this past year: 

Isaiah 46:4 
Even to your old age and gray hairs
I am he, I am he who will sustain you.
I have made you and I will carry you;
I will sustain you and I will rescue you.

He really did.

Oh!  One last thing. Pam, over at Wicked Sweet, wrote a sweet letter to her daughter last summer.  She inspired me to write a similar letter to Matthew.  It was beautiful.  (I even stole some lines....hoping Pam understands that imitation is the sincerest form of flattery!) 

Anyway, I will give it to him on Saturday.  I'll post it here, too.  : )