Since March of last year, I've been caught in the headlights of diabetes. It hasn't been pretty.
Diabetes has challenged every single area of my life. EVERYTHING has been impacted by diabetes. Life has changed forever.
And quite frankly, I haven't handled it very well. I mean, I'm doing my best and life is getting better. God is carrying me through....of that, I am confident.
The biggest challenge for me is high blood sugar. I hate it. I feel like such a failure when the highs linger.
My brain travels on fast-forward to the future complications that Matthew might face.....all because I cannot get his sugar in range today.
I don't want him to pay for my mistakes.
But I've made a huge discovery! (Thanks in part to my more faithful quiet time with God....and also a recent post by Meri.)
I have learned that the bad times don't last.
Matthew may be high for days or even weeks. I will rack my brain trying to figure out if it's because of a growth spurt? Coming out of honeymoon? Basal? Bolus? Mistakes on carb counting? The list of possibilitites is endless.
BUT...I will figure it out. Eventually I WILL get his sugar back in range. I WILL!
Bad days do not last forever.
Just until the next growth spurt....or carb counting mistakes.....or high fat meal....or activity mis-calculations......or......