After the 3 of us enjoyed a yummy breakfast, I went back to bed and slept until lunch. Kevin made a great spaghetti lunch and then I went back to bed for a few more hours. Not all sleep. A little reading. A little snoozing. A lot of thinking. It was nice of Kevin to give me the time. (And yes, I did skip out on church that morning, but I went last night, filling in for the pianist.)
The extra sleep has really helped me to stop and think about the way life is going right now. Everything feels out of control and I need to make some changes.
I'm not one to set New Year's Resolutions, but this year I did set some goals for myself. I pulled out the list yesterday and had to laugh. My focus certainly has changed.
Here are some things I wanted to do this year:
- Have a daily quiet time first thing in the morning.
- Read the bible through this year.
- Play the piano more often
- I wanted to run my first 5K
- Lose 20 pounds.
I did great for the first 2 months. Absolutely great! Every morning (for the most part) I was up for my quiet time and right on schedule with my bible reading. When I had a spare minute, I would sit down and play the piano. I was faithfully training for the 5K and had lost 10 pounds. I felt great.
But then March 5 hit like a hurricane and I can't seem to catch up on anything. My quiet time stinks. When I have it. I'm not reading the bible. I did run that 5K, but have hardly been on the treadmill since and I'm pretty sure I've gained back the 10 pounds. If not more.
You know what else? On my list, right at the top of the page, I wrote that I wanted 2010 to be "A Year of Rejoicing" for me. Ummmm....that's not happening.
So....I'm making some changes. For me and the sanity of my family.
Today I'm going to spend more time praying and brainstorming. Tomorrow I'll post my new goals. Or my old goals revisited.
One thing is for sure. I don't want to live this way. I want my life to bring glory to God, but in order for that to happen, I'm going to have to make some changes.