Thank you so much for your sweet, encouraging comments. I LOVE the DOC! (That's Diabetes Online Community for you non-D folks.)
I think part of my emotional ride was hearing of yet another teenage death due to diabetes. It was heartbreaking to read her mother's post on Facebook. I cannot believe Matthew has the same disease.
And that is why we check. Every single night. And we pray. And we breathe a huge sigh of relief when they roll over. Wiggle. Rustle in the covers. They are alive!
So many people are misinformed about Type 1. They think it's all diet and exercise. They think it's "easy" to manage. Tracy wrote a great post about this on Tuesday.
I wish more people understood. I think it would make this journey easier if there wasn't such a misconception about Type 1.
People don't understand that the very thing that saves Matthew's life could take his life in an instant.
And as parents, the weight is on our shoulders. WE are responsible for making the daily decisions....calculations that change constantly. We PRAY we are one step ahead. We TRUST that God is guiding our hand. And we keep putting one foot in front of the other.
BUT enough of that.
This wasn't written to be a downer. I'm writing to say thank you. And after shedding many tears and spending some time in prayer, I feel better.
It's a new day.
Diabetes is still here....but so am I.
And I will not give up.