Tuesday, June 8, 2010

A Day of Rejoicing

I'm really struggling with my priorites lately. I know what I want to do. I know what I need to do. But....I don't. I get into this "checklist" mentality and then my heart is not in the things I'm doing. I lose my focus.

I know the answer, though. I need to get back into living life one day at a time. Rejoicing in that day alone and not worrying about the future.

You'd think Matthew's diabetes would help me with this. I mean, your focus has to be on that one day. Those meals. Those numbers. There's no point in worrying about tomorrow, you just want to work to keep the numbers in range that day.

So why can't I transfer that focus to other areas of my life? Sigh. Truthfully though, I know I can get back in the groove and I'm determined to keep working on this.

I'll never make this a "Year of Rejoicing" if I don't make every day a "Day of Rejoicing!"

Matthew has had some crazy highs lately. I lowered his morning ratio and he was much better at lunch. That was nice to see!

Now I need to tackle his late-day highs. Looking back over his log, I noticed he's in a pattern he had before. My notes show that I increased his lantus and that worked, so I'm going to up his lantus a tiny bit tonight and see if that helps.


Meri said...

Good luck with the lantus changes! Hope they do the trick. :) I love the idea of a year of rejoicing! Maybe a rejoicing journal? Where we can every morning or night right what we will be thankful for...and in turn rejoice over!

connie said...

Somedays I have to take it one hour at a time, it's hard to balance the everyday stuff that is required of us and add D to the mix. It is something that I have been working on lately, it's not easy but it is high on my priority list...I need to focus just a little more on my needs, some good quality mommy time :)

Hang in there my friend, we have good days and bad...we just need to take it a day at a time.

I love it...Rejoicing in each day, a wonderful way to aproach life. Good luck with everything and I hope that you see some better numbers soon.

The Crazy Pancreas said...

Hi Tracy, Good luck with making the changes!

I also wanted to introduce myself. I just found your blog through someone else's (can't remember who). I am Tracy and my son Zane was dx with T1 @18 months on 7.10.08.

Here is a link to my new blog: http://www.onesuperheroandoneprincess.blogspot.com

I do not use any real names on my blog, for privacy reasons. :)

Nice to "meet" you!

Amanda said...

Tracy, I am impressed with how well you are doing considering the fact that Matthew was just diagnosed in April! Seriously, you seem very on the ball and positive for such a recent diagnosis. Don't be hard on yourself!

Thanks for the thoughts about rejoicing in each day - I can always use those reminders!

Donna said...

Hi Tracy! Nice to "meet" you! I just found you through the comment you left on my blog.
I agree with Amanda! You are SO much more "with it" at this point than I was!
I look forward to getting to know you and your sweet son better! =)