I'm really struggling with my priorites lately. I know what I want to do. I know what I need to do. But....I don't. I get into this "checklist" mentality and then my heart is not in the things I'm doing. I lose my focus.
I know the answer, though. I need to get back into living life one day at a time. Rejoicing in that day alone and not worrying about the future.
You'd think Matthew's diabetes would help me with this. I mean, your focus has to be on that one day. Those meals. Those numbers. There's no point in worrying about tomorrow, you just want to work to keep the numbers in range that day.
So why can't I transfer that focus to other areas of my life? Sigh. Truthfully though, I know I can get back in the groove and I'm determined to keep working on this.
I'll never make this a "Year of Rejoicing" if I don't make every day a "Day of Rejoicing!"
Matthew has had some crazy highs lately. I lowered his morning ratio and he was much better at lunch. That was nice to see!
Now I need to tackle his late-day highs. Looking back over his log, I noticed he's in a pattern he had before. My notes show that I increased his lantus and that worked, so I'm going to up his lantus a tiny bit tonight and see if that helps.