I have a confession to make: I really don't pray for a cure.
Oh sure, I've tossed up a quick prayer here and there, but it's not a big focus for me.
Thinking about a cure distracts me from living life today.
In fact, I don't even like for people to talk about a cure. (Gasp!) It's like planning on winning the lottery one day. Who can live that way?
Yes, I would LOVE it if there was a cure for Type 1 Diabetes.
I would LOVE it if Matthew didn't have count carbs at every meal. Change the pod every 3 days. Prick his finger and test his BG 10 times a day.
It would be FANTASTIC if we didn't have to worry about lows. Or highs. Or....complications later in life.
But truthfully, my biggest prayer is that he'll always have access to insulin.
That's what scares me.
What if he doesn't have it one day?
No one can live without insulin! And DKA can happen so fast.
A cure would be a huge blessing, but in the meantime, I will be thankful for insulin.
7 comments:
Girl, your posts are RIGHT ON with how I am thinking these days. :) I feel the same way. I don't expect a cure in Adam's lifetime. Would it be nice? Absolutely! Am I expecting one? Nope.
Amen. Sing it sister!
Living day to day, in His perfect grace, is what I strive for. I don't bank on promises from anyone but Him. I do send up thanks of prayer for what we have now . . . fantastic tools to keep out T1D healthy day to day.
Love this post!
Oh heavens, me too!!!! I don't think about a cure, pray for a cure or even talk about it. I can't live with the regret that I squandered today wishing for something that is not here yet. I also don't want Grace to be crushed when, 30-40 years from now, she still has Type 1 and the cure has not happened yet. If it comes, it will be a wonderful blessing, and if it doesn't, we are still blessed. How about that?
Just found your blog, very happy I did.
The thought of no insulin is one that is always lurking in the back of my mind. We have a back up supply of everything except insulin. Natural disaster, political/social upheaval...so many things can happen to change the ease of access to this life support for our children. I am thankful that God has blessed us with the insulin we need and pray that He forgives me for my insecurity. My hope and trust are in the Lord.
I try not to think about a cure, its to hard to think about what could be and not be discontent. Instead I try to think of things I KNOW will happen, like being in heaven one day and talking about how I used to have diabetes.
I pray for a cure all the time. I also pray for a healing for my son. Noah's life is in God's hands, and there is no better place to be. God may choose to grant my pray or He may choose not to, His will is perfect and something I don't always understand. But, I am not ashamed to ask my loving Father, who heals with just one word from His mouth. James says we have not because we ask not, or because we ask amiss. I may often be guilty of asking amiss, but I wont be guilty of not asking.
I loved this post and think about this too... all the time.
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