Many of you know that I homeschooled Matthew for several years. It started because of Kevin's work schedule and then....it just worked for us. Matthew and I both loved it.
But I felt like it was time to move on. There were other things that I wanted Matthew to learn....taking instruction from others.....being responsible to do the work....those sorts of things.
Well, we were really blessed to enroll him in a school that is sort of "between" regular school and homeschool. It's a university model school and it basically just like college. You can choose what courses you take. Matthew only took 2 last year. He will be enrolled in 4 classes this year. Elementary goes on T/Th and the upper grades are M/W/F. A full day of homework is given for those days out of school. We absolutely love it.
One reason I loved homeschooling was because I had more time with Matthew. We could do all sorts of fun things together. And yes, I could shelter him a bit and protect that innocence that is lost so early these days.
But school has been fabulous for both of us. There has been a huge burden lifted from my shoulders since I don't have to do all the planning. One of the biggest benefits I could see for Matthew was that he was becoming more independent.
Then diabetes came into our lives. Suddenly I was back with him at school every day for shots. (There is no nurse at our campus, though there is a fabulous d-mom there willing to do anything for Matthew! He doesn't want her doing shots yet. Of course....now he can do his own, so perhaps she can just supervise.)
But I find myself thinking so much about developing his independence. Part of me still sees that young, adventurous boy that I want to keep with me. The other part of me sees a little man who has diabetes and needs to learn how to take care of himself. I think that training has to start now.
I keep telling Matthew that I'm not going to force him to count every carb right now----I want him to enjoy being a kid! But there are little ways that I can encourage him to become more independent. (In a past post, I already talked about my summer goals for him.)
I think diabetes camp helped Matthew gain a bit of independence. And folks, it was hard for me, but good for him. Easy choice.
((Sidenote: Thank you Mom and Dad, for always pushing and encouraging me when it was probably difficult for you. It made me a stronger person and yet, I've learned to rely on God. I know with His help, I am fully capable caring for a child with diabetes. Thank you for always being there for me!))
God is really helping me see the big picture and see it so clearly: It's about taking care of Matthew right now, but training him to take care of himself in the future.
I pray God will guide me every step of the way.