Goal Number 3: Exercise

I'm going to let Matthew inspire me on this one.

• Matthew has to have a shot before he eats because it's good for him.
• I'm going to get on the treadmill 3 days a week because it's good for me.

The end.

Quick sidenote....Matthew had crazy blood sugars last night. He's supposed to be at least 100 to go to sleep, but we had such a terrible time getting him up to that number.

Of course, Matthew loved staying up until 9:00. After that, all the following treatments were given while he was asleep. Who knew Matthew could eat graham crackers while sleeping? Really, he never lifted his head from the pillow. Never opened his eyes. Just opened that little mouth and chewed. What a good kid.

8pm: 68 Treated with 8 carbs (He caught this low. I was proud of him.)

9pm: 84 Hmmm....treated with 6 more carbs

10pm: 93 What's the deal? Gave half a juice box.

11:30 pm: 90 Are you kidding me? He should be well over 100 by now, but he's going down? More juice.

Midnight: 94 WHAT? Gave more carbs. About 8....I think. It was late.

1am: 173 Well, great....I didn't want him to go up that much. Oh well, still in range. I did not correct.

3am: 145 At least he's coming down.

7am: 75 I don't like him this low for breakfast. AND I discovered ants in the bathroom from leaving open juice boxes.

The rollercoaster ride of diabetes is frustrating, confusing and exhausting.....

Goal Number Two: Daily Quiet Time

I know, I know......this probably should have been goal number 1, but with my lack of sleep I often found myself dozing during my quiet time. So....had to hit the sleep issue first.

But I think Goal #2 will be pretty easy for me because I'm not changing a lot. I'm simply going to pick up reading the bible where I left off. The downside is that I really hoped to get through the entire bible this year, but since I've waited 40 years to try, I don't think God will mind a few extra months. : )

One thing I will change is the timing. I had gotten to the point where I loved having my quiet time first thing in the morning, but that doesn't really work with our lifestyle anymore. Unless I want to get up even earlier, which I don't. So....I'm going to change my time to right after breakfast. School is out next week, so that schedule should work great.

Pretty easy-breezy, huh? I'll hit goal #3 tomorrow. (It's the exercise one. Sigh....)

Goal Number One: More Sleep

First, a big thank you to my new online friends who left me encouragement yesterday! You are the best. Your blogs are wonderful. Each and every post makes me feel like our new life is very normal. Isn't is nice to know I'm encouraged by your lack of sleep? : )

And thanks to my mom as well. She said it's already been a "Year of Rejoicing" because Matthew's diabetes can be managed. How true! I am certainly rejoicing over insulin. : )

Now...on to the goal setting. First and foremost, I've got to get more sleep.

From reading other blogs, it's clear that a night of uninterrupted sleep is a thing of the past. And that's okay. I really don't mind it, but I need to figure out some ways to get extra sleep.

One of my problems is that I always feel guilty because I should be cleaning the house, or washing clothes, or reading a diabetes book. But if I will take the time to get a little extra sleep, I know I'll have energy for those other necessary things.

(Sidenote here. Kevin and I do take turns getting up in the middle of the night, but I always wake up. Always. I literally have not slept through the night since Matthew's diagnosis. Kevin is trying to help me change that, but I just wake up. Grrr.....)

Moving on.....here are my ideas:

1. Library Day = Nap Day For Me. Anyone who knows Matthew knows that he is a reader first and foremost. We hit the library weekly and check out a minimum of 40 books. (Folks, I am not kidding.) When we get home, he spends several hours with his head buried in books. So.....from now on, that will be nap time for me. Hmm.....can I fit the library in tomorrow?.....

2. I'm bringing back television. Several years ago, I made the decision to stop letting Matthew watch television. It just wasn't a habit that I wanted him to build. Instead, we decided to have a movie night once a week. He loved the idea and has never complained. Yes, I would let him watch an occasional show, but I can honestly say that he watches TV, maybe once a month. If that.....but no more. I've decided when I need a rest, he can watch a show. A decent, wholesome show. And not 3 hours. Just enough for me to get a good nap. :)

3. Go to bed earlier. Kevin's schedule has him home later than most dads and I always stay up because.....quite frankly, by evening I get a second wind and want to stay up. I need to change this and just go to bed!

4. Learn to like coffee. Actually, I don't think I'm that desperate. Yet....

So, that's my plan. I'd love any feedback or suggestions. I'll try to get goal number 2 up tomorrow.

Making Some Changes

I had the best Mother's Day ever, thanks to my sweet husband. (By the way, we met 16 years ago today!)

After the 3 of us enjoyed a yummy breakfast, I went back to bed and slept until lunch. Kevin made a great spaghetti lunch and then I went back to bed for a few more hours. Not all sleep. A little reading. A little snoozing. A lot of thinking. It was nice of Kevin to give me the time. (And yes, I did skip out on church that morning, but I went last night, filling in for the pianist.)

The extra sleep has really helped me to stop and think about the way life is going right now. Everything feels out of control and I need to make some changes.

I'm not one to set New Year's Resolutions, but this year I did set some goals for myself. I pulled out the list yesterday and had to laugh. My focus certainly has changed.

Here are some things I wanted to do this year:

1. Have a daily quiet time first thing in the morning.
2. Read the bible through this year.
3. Play the piano more often
4. I wanted to run my first 5K
5. Lose 20 pounds.

I did great for the first 2 months. Absolutely great! Every morning (for the most part) I was up for my quiet time and right on schedule with my bible reading. When I had a spare minute, I would sit down and play the piano. I was faithfully training for the 5K and had lost 10 pounds. I felt great.

But then March 5 hit like a hurricane and I can't seem to catch up on anything. My quiet time stinks. When I have it. I'm not reading the bible. I did run that 5K, but have hardly been on the treadmill since and I'm pretty sure I've gained back the 10 pounds. If not more.

You know what else? On my list, right at the top of the page, I wrote that I wanted 2010 to be "A Year of Rejoicing" for me. Ummmm....that's not happening.

So....I'm making some changes. For me and the sanity of my family.

Today I'm going to spend more time praying and brainstorming. Tomorrow I'll post my new goals. Or my old goals revisited.

One thing is for sure. I don't want to live this way. I want my life to bring glory to God, but in order for that to happen, I'm going to have to make some changes.